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Aug. 7th, 2006


My bloodied, bandaged arms

I often envy those who don't remember their dreams after they've awoken. I really miss the days when I could open my eyes and didn't have to pinch myself to reaffirm that I was awake. The last few mornings I've woken from dreams which were so frighteningly realistic. It seems I've had dreams like such for as long as I can remember, and only in the past two-three years have they actually bothered me.

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I checked myself over several times after I woke up, just to make sure my arms weren't in the state in which I'd dreamed.

Jul. 22nd, 2006


I'm ready for a vacation

Rachel found out what hours she'll be working next week. I, however, will be working the same hours I already have been for the last month. Monday thru Friday, 10am-5pm. I admit this job has gotten easier. Much easier in comparison to that first week from hell. I'm very grateful work isn't as stressful as it could be. I'm glad that I finally have money coming in, especially now that I have new contact lenses and glasses to pay for.

I am a people-pleaser by nature. I put a large amount of effort into keeping those around me happy and stress free. Since June I've been running myself ragged trying to keep a nine month old healthy and happy, my house clean, waiting on Pam, and making time to be with Bryant. All of that caught up with me last Friday.

I can't bring myself to do something to change my situation. I feel as though its unfair of me to speak whats on my mind. I was the very last option, and now I'm severely regretting it. Recently I've started to become really bitter, and resentful of work, and of my family. Bryant has offered help so many times, but I'm too much of a coward to take it.
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Dec. 29th, 2005

Bad Idea

"So, on the internet I'm male?"

This is the second time I've been mistaken for being a man, and I should be insulted, but hey, its a message board. Half the time I can't tell either. I thought the cute, girly sig would've been a clue. Anyway, had some poor girl post this:

omg. K**-***, ____ I always thought you guys were boys. ^^;;;;;;

Me: I get that alot.

Yes, whenever I'm online I magically grow testicals.

Dec. 22nd, 2005



There are several alternative and constructive activities I could be indulging in at the moment.

  • Finish wrapping the bag of gifts I have

  • Get my gear ready for tomorrow so that I'm not rushing to find everything in the morning and end up forgetting something important.

  • Clean up and get some rest

So am I going to accomplish any of those items? Probably not. Am I going to enjoy myself tomorrow? Probably not. Am I glad I'm not staying overnight? Hell yes.

Dec. 19th, 2005


"Excuse me, do you think this thong would fit my wife?"

Christmas shopping with Pam and Tim. Pam was looking through sleepwear while Tim and I stood nearby talking. This man comes up to us, and holds up a package of womens Hanes underwear and asks: "Excuse me, how do I find the right sizes?"

Me: O-o?! *WTF?!*
Tim: Conveniently off in his own world*
Pam: *patiently explains the sizes to the man*
Man: Thank-you!

He was really polite the whole time and he looked about the same age as my step-dad, but for me it was just weird. Now we know someone is getting underwear for Christmas.

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